I’ve been thinking a lot about this topic recently, maybe its part of discovering my femininity and how to best express the woman that I am. I have often mused to myself about how ego so often gets in the way not only of happiness, but of being able to fully realize the best version… Read More Avery On: The cult of Perfectionism
Conversations at the Convo’ April 1999 C.J.O.B. Radio A.M. 600 Presents Jimmy Yergeau and Book Talk Live from the Old Town Book Shop Guest Author Marvin Filon continues reading excerpts from his book. “I’ll always think of chicken sandwiches and gravy when I think of home. “I was making lunch, nothing really, only coming off… Read More Chapter Three
CONCESSIONS Friday June 21st, 1996 Marvin walked through the door of the Cafe Convo at six minutes after two in the morning he was right on schedule. Marvin proceeded to take up position in the back of the café, arriving at the empty booth and setting to the task at hand, that of compiling his… Read More Chapter Two
DOWNWARD MOBILITY April 1999 C.J.O.B. Radio A.M. 600 Presents Jimmy Yergeau and Book Talk Live from the Old Town Book Shop With Guest Author Marvin Filon this evening live broadcast starting at 8 p.m. “The following excerpt opens Marvin Filon’s examination of the job hunting experience as way of life…” Jimmy’s smooth melodious tones take… Read More Chapter One
by J. Avery Cain Forward This novel has been following me around a lot longer than I would like to admit, twenty some years now, only in finding myself did I also find the courage to be the story teller I always was. I have been writing since I was fifteen, and like many teenagers… Read More deadbeats
Birth of a Monster | A Star Wars Story At twenty minutes and fifty seven seconds this incredible fan film should fit into your lunch break, enjoy this delectable short.
It’s been an interesting ten days since the last episode of Avery Actualized. Saturday February 23rd was spent playing Dungeon’s and Dragon’s with some amazing women, having a chance to nerd out in an all female environment (especially with a game that is in the public’s eye often times viewed as being Androcentric) was… Read More Avery Actualized: Episode Three: Laying the Foundation
I have been a video game and gaming enthusiast for most of my life. From a very young age I can remember first Pinball machines and then around the age of seven or eight video games being a big part of my entertainment. I was nine years old when I started to go to… Read More Avery On: A love/hate relationship with Video Games
As many people, family and friendships that I have left in my wake it’s never been easy to let go. All too often, even when the relationship is far in the past the emotional connections remain because I have not had the courage to bring that interaction to a satisfying conclusion. Over the… Read More Avery on: Letting go of toxic friendships
Well, it is long overdue and I am editing my long unpublished novel/screenplay/movie “deadbeats”. In order to move forward I need to be done with this story once and for all. The story was written back in 1996-98 and originally conceived as a movie. Together with a group of friends we filmed deadbeats over the… Read More “deadbeats” coming soon
I’ve been searching for me all my life, as we all are of course. I don’t claim to have it all figured out, far from it, I am so happy to always have more questions. For once however I do have some major answers. … Read More Avery Actualized: Episode Two: Slow burn to Self Discovery.
There is a great lineage of album covers that have so clearly delineated the feeling and emotion of the music contained on the albums that they are an integral part of. Bobby Tarantino II and it’s art work by Sam Spratt is one of those cases. Logic and Sam Spratt have been working together… Read More SoapBoxArcade Recommends: Music that changed me
In March of 2000 I was thirty years old and moving in with my middle brother and his family. They gave me shelter, a roof over my head, food, a room, and time to get myself together before I would need to get a job. From about May of 2000 until August of 2001… Read More Avery On: For a phoenix to rise it must burn
Between the years of 1990 and 1998 I worked for approximately forty some odd employers and lived in fifteen different apartments. Once I moved out of my father’s home into my first apartment I began the process of trying my hand at any job that came my way. I began the task of excising my… Read More Avery On: The ‘deadbeats’ years 1990 to 1999
Dear Reader, As I move through my journey to becoming myself in the Avery On series it’s also important to me that I loop you in to the present day and all the wonderful things that I am experiencing. It can be hard to see the “forest for the trees” when you are in… Read More Avery Actualized: Episode One: Being the real me
Let me take you back to the summer of 1989, Batman (the Tim Burton version) comes out in theater’s, U2’s Joshua Tree is released, and I am about to turn 20 years old. As has been recounted in my essay series Avery On, summers meant summer camp. When I graduated high school in the summer… Read More Avery on: It should have been S.U.N.Y.
When my mother passed away in December of 1980 I was in grade six and about to enter a much bigger world. Her passing left me sullen and angry. I was never a particularly great student, writing is likely the only reason I was ever advanced. I was much more interested in spending time in… Read More Avery on: The High School Years 1981-1987
Trigger warning: abuse, body dysmorphia, dysphoria and loss of loved ones (or death) So it turns out I am a girl, it’s as much a surprise to me as to anyone else I suppose, yet there it is who I am. Now why would I say it is a surprise when so many of today’s… Read More Avery on: Living in my best timeline
So, a status update on Project P, the project is mapped out with a solid skeleton, and as is my custom I am writing out of order. This is made possible by the skeleton. Now I fill in the blanks, I crave the structure to stay focused. theOnyxx has built us a “World Bible” though… Read More Project P Status Update December 2018
Inherent in the meaning of the word reboot is that it is a “do-over”, re-start, to begin again virtually from scratch, and herein lies the challenge. Yet another reboot is being made. I was all prepared to talk about originality, the notion that new content isn’t being made, and then I realized that I might… Read More Avery On: The Reboot Conundrum